Had a picnic on Sunday with questioner, auror, bester, zebediah, lariel, and others at the Esplanade. It was peaceful and fun for a while. Then old wounds resurfaced. After conversations with bester, questioner, and auror, I realized that being angsty wasn't going to help matters. I grew tired of all the angst in my life from myself and from others. For the first time, I was able to say to myself: "I'm single. It feels great." Dating is now a possibility, but I just want to have fun. Tempted to go in the way of Benedict in "Much Ado About Nothing" (my favorite Shakespearean play). We'll see.
Which brings up earlier today. I helped someone pack and clean her room on my day off. It felt good to help others, especially when no one else would. Just wished I kept track of time. Due to budget constraints, my mother wanted me to return her pager since she could no longer afford the $200/month service. I feel naked already. On the plus side, I do have to be on call 24 hours a day at work.