Don't want to just go through the motions. To simply exist isn't enough. It just feels that I lost my purpose. A Gundam pilot without a mission. This is the numbness stage that I want to get rid of quickly by tomorrow. It's already affecting my Tech Squares performance. No feeling, just instinct.
Some people joking ask "What would Brian Boitano do?" as a South Park reference. I've been asking myself "What would David Copperfield do?" I'm a fan of his work since I was a little boy, and I have video copies of many of his performances. Wish I can fly like he did. I'm seeing them as I put the finishing touches on my campaign rules and map. Hope it all goes well. Hope Roast goes well. I need to laugh again. I need to have fun again. I need to feel again.