At noon, I received a call from my mother for the first time in months. Apparently, she has a new phone and a new place. I should have felt glad to see her, but instead I just felt numb. I didn't get back to her right away. We had a brief chat considering that we were both working. I can hear how upset she was that none of the family members kept in contact with each other. Maybe I should have tried harder in locating her. Her contact information was lost. The contact information of my brothers were also lost. I still feel hesitant to contact them. It reminds me of the ugliness things got long ago with the separation, eviction, and arguments. I'm at a loss.